22nd
The beginning of the next stage
As I sit here, pondering what exactly to write, I think about how I have come to this point in my life, and where I may be headed. Just six years ago, I was all set to be in the Army Reserves, with no application to a college in mind since I would be at basic training until October. If it wasn’t for three simple words that I told my parents, I might have been activated to Iraq at some point, and who knows how that would have turned out. Those three simple words though, “I have depression,” those three words changed my life completely. Instead of going to basic training, I got a discharge from the Army, and enrolled in a local Community College to start my college education. A serious of events that eventually led me to meeting my now ex online, moving to Norman to go to OU in 2005 and searching for those answers now.
I often find myself thinking everything happens for a reason, but why did destiny push me to Oklahoma? Love, job, money, inspiration, this is one question I can not answer. For now, I am looking to meet new amazing people to spend time with. This can be difficult due to my general shyness, but there are a lot of great people out there who I just want to sit next to. Companionship, that is what I am longing for. To just be able to sit, watch the stars move slowly above in the sky and smile thinking about how great it is to be here with these amazing people I am close to. Someone recently asked me what is better, a hug or a kiss. To be honest, nothing cheers me up quite like a good hug. Only one thing may actually be better, and that is cuddling with someone special. I try to savior those moments now because of how truly unique and wonderful they are.
A lot has gone on the past 6 years, and in the end, I really do not think I will regret any of it. Sometimes I wonder if I can survive the past, but one who dwells in the past can’t move forward. It is time to move on, meet new amazing friends, finish my degree, find a job and find that one true love I will want to be with forever. I have started the movement, unlocked the door to the next stage in life. I am on the search for those friends first to accompany on this long journey, and hopefully we can stand together on the adventures of our lives.
“A smile unlocks the heart faster than a key can open a door.”
